The Birth of My Scarcity Mindset
Her words ring in my ears every time I think about trying to go back to school, find a better paying job, plan a move, or make any sort of plan for my life involving finances.
"You'll never have a pot to piss in."
I'm not sure how many times my mother said this to me when I was a teenager - and even well into my twenties - but it was enough to stick with me.
To be fair, she also used to say I was one of the two most beautiful girls in the world. The other most beautiful girl is my sister. Yet the positive messages and affirmations from my mother to me felt like they were few and far between.
My mother frequently told me that I was crazy, wouldn’t have a pot to piss in, that I was lazy, that I was mean (to my sister, mostly), and more. As you can imagine, I wasn’t very happy as a teenager.
Now at nearly 38 years old, I am trying to learn about the Law of Attraction and manifesting my dream life, but I keep finding myself blocked by a strong feeling of lack and scarcity.
My scarcity mindset is a lifelong habit at this point, likely programmed into me at first by my mother's negative messages about who I was as a child and who I could potentially become.
Although I do believe my limiting beliefs initially came from her, I know that I adopted and nurtured those beliefs for a very long time. You see, once I finally cut my mother out of my life for good, it was my responsibility to create new beliefs and a new mindset.
I refuse to spend the rest of my life blaming my mother for how poorly I treat myself. She is no longer a part of my life, and that was a choice I made for the sake of my own sanity and peace.
My mindset and belief system is my responsibility, and mine alone. So from here on out, it will no longer be, "You'll never have a pot to piss in."
No. Now I say, "Look at the amazing things you’ve already done for yourself. You and your son have always had a roof over your heads. You bought your first house five years ago with bad credit, having just started a new job. Your next house will be even better!"
